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The Prospect of Failure

One of the biggest things I fear as an artist is failure. I know I’m not alone. Confidence issues happen to every artist I know. The strangest thing is that every artist I know sees failure differently.
It could come as a 1-star review. It could be a negative reaction to some specific aspect of the work. It could come in any number of ways.
My job, as a writer, isn’t to entertain everyone that reads my work. My job is to produce the best content I can and let people find it.
Today I spent a little time going through reviews of all my works. There aren’t many. It’s easy to go through them all if I chose to. What I was looking for wasn’t how many negative reviews I had or how many positive reviews I had. That wasn’t the goal. What I was looking for was, did the reviews get better over time? Had I improved?
Now, there were a lot of people that LOVED V&A Shipping back in the day when I produced it in audio. When I released it in print and ebook, it got a lukewarm response, at best. I hadn’t been expecting that. What was different?
My first version, the audio, didn’t have any typos…that listeners could see. I could fix grammar and spelling as I read it out loud. Again, to the best of my abilities at the time.
I’ve said this many many times, but it bears repeating. You can’t get worse at something if you keep doing it. I say this repeatedly to reinforce it with myself. You can reach a plateau and that’s where learning from others comes in handy. Reading is a great exercise. Learning from someone who’s successful at what you want to do is invaluable.
At any rate, got a super late start this evening. I’m crazy tired and it’s time to get to bed.
5/5/2021 GRPC 2 will drop. I will make certain to provide lots of links to the ebook when it’s available.
Until Next Time!
Stay Awesome!
Audio Only: https://anchor.fm/jr-murdock/episodes/5-a-Day-With-Jay—0128-e1075ku
I feel like I’m swimming upstream.

It’s a feeling that difficult to shake. That feeling of moving in a direction and getting no closer to the finish line. Running in place. Swimming upstream. Swimming against the tide.
In high school, I ran track and cross country. Long distance running. Each day we’d run 6 miles for practice. Then do sprints. Now, I’ve got short legs. I was chubby in high school. I didn’t run quickly. But run I did. I was never the fastest on the team, but once I got my legs in motion, I could run for a long time.
One of the only things that held me back were underdeveloped bronchi. In colder weather, it would be difficult if not painful to breathe. I was never asthmatic and I couldn’t imagine what that’s like, but I had problems.
Suffice to say, I know what a long painful struggle something can be.
That’s what I’m feeling now. I’ve run the race a few times and I never got any where. Now, here I am again. At the starting line. Getting ready to run the race once more. I keep asking myself, am I prepared this time?
It’s why I’m spending far more time getting prepared. I don’t think I was ever fully prepared last time. I didn’t put my best work out. Good stories, yes, but not well edited. So I needed to revisit what I’d done. Check it all again. See where I failed and where I succeeded. Make certain that the ground I’ve covered before hasn’t changed since the last time I was there.
Guess what. Some of it has changed. Things are different. There are so many other people out there running the same race. Trying to do the same thing. I’m just another fish in the stream trying to get ahead and there’s an entire school ahead of me.
I’m not going to let that be a deterrent. Quite that opposite. I’m using that as inspiration to push ahead harder than I ever did before. This time around, I’m not just pushing books out and hoping for the best. I’ve got a plan. For me, it’ll be slow and steady. For others, it’s bold and aggressive. However you view it, it’s a plan and I’m ready to carry it out.
There will be no 5 a Day with Jay until next week, but there will be blog posts.
Until Next Time!
Stay Awesome!
Audio Only: https://anchor.fm/jr-murdock/episodes/5-a-Day-With-Jay—0118-eus4d4
Rebuilding.

One of the many things I thought about over the weekend, while relaxing by the pool, petting dogs, and enjoying the Southern California sunshine, I knew what I needed to do.
I’ve said this many times over the course of this blog and on 5 a day with Jay. Yes, I know I’m becoming a broken record, but it needs to be said over and over.
I’m rebuilding the relationship with my fans.
Back when I was podcasting, I had an audience of around 200. That doesn’t sound like a lot in the grand scheme of things, but when I look my number now, I’m lacking. I’ve had to think why am I lacking and what can I do to fix that.
One word I’ve used over and over has been consistency. Doing this blog every day. Posting 5 a day with Jay on week days. I need to get doing my newsletter to my email group monthly. I need to get my books and short stories scheduled so they’ll drop on time without fail.
Why? Why do I need to be consistent? What is it about doing this regularly that I’m hoping to achieve? What does this do with the relationship between the reader and me?
It rebuilds the trust.
When I disappeared, several times over the past decade, I proved to readers I wasn’t to be trusted. Sure, I put out a good story, but I didn’t put them out in a timely manner. I didn’t keep the content flowing. Why keep following someone who isn’t going to keep their head in the game?
When talking with Tim Niederriter this evening for his podcast, that’s the one thing we kept coming back to. Consistency is key, but it helps build trust with readers.
That’s what I’m working toward. Rebuilding the trust I once had with readers.
I’m off to go make some magic happen
Until Next Time!
Stay Awesome!
Audio Only: https://anchor.fm/jr-murdock/episodes/5-a-Day-With-Jay—0117-euq5ci






